Basically, it just means get up and show up to life everyday. But that's not so easy. It sounds like it, and some days it is. But a lot of days, it is not. There are days when I feel so strong, like I could take on anything. Even if nothing goes my way, I will go down swinging and won't regret a second. There are days that are just the opposite. Even if something good happens, I can't get out of my own way and stop dwelling on the dark side of things.
Then there are the days in between-which is mostly where I spend my time. How do I know when I am just spinning my wheels? How do I know when it is really worth it? to dig down deep and never give up? Can I stop holding on to things that make me feel bad? Can I find self forgiveness? Find the bright side? Have an open mind? Appreciate the wins-accept the losses? Can I make a change? Take control? Challenge myself? Be courageous? Take a risk? Believe in myself? Look at something in a different light instead of jumping to conclusions? Forgive someone? Break bad habits? See hope and beauty even in times of trouble?
Of course these are rhetorical questions, but they can apply to so many things in my everyday life. I know the list goes on and on. I know how to answer these things in my life. But I don't do it. Many days, I just ignore it. I know why too. It takes so much more energy. Everything worthwhile is harder to obtain. I guess if it was easy, it may not be so fulfilling. I have accepted that so many wrong turns and disappointments, while at the time where terrible, have gone on to serve a bigger purpose in my life.
So, what to do when at a crossroads, or when not sure how to go on? I guess you just keep on keepin on....
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